Sunday, August 29, 2010

You chased me all day

I was reminded of you this morning.. To the point that I was ready to get up and leave... I didn't want to hear your crap.. I didn't want to be reminded.

So I've run from you all day... But there you were... at the end of every task I did... at the end of every line on the sewing machine or stitch in the crocheting.. There you were in the silence between songs on the Ipod I turned on b/c I could not take your torment..

There you were..

Staring at me..

Mocking me..

Reminding me what a failure I am. There you were. Scratching open the scab that I've tried so hard to let heal.. Ripping it open to ooze and fester. There you were.

And now here I am. Trying not to cry.... Trying to stay busy... Running from your torment.

I've gotten tired this afternoon... so tired... Please leave me alone.. please go away... please stop....

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