Only Thing

"Only Thing"
By Ronnie Freeman, off his God Speaking cd

I heard someone say the other day
They'd seen in me true love displayed
Blessed by something I had done for them

No sooner did they speak those words
I found myself somehow disturbed
Uneasy as I took their compliment

Because I know the heart inside this man
And I know the truth of who I am

The only thing that's good in me is Jesus
The only thing that's good in me is Jesus
I'll live long enough to know no matter what this life may show
The only thing that's good in me is Jesus

If you could walk the hallways of my heart
And see things as they really are
I wonder if you might be surprised

Seeing faded walls of pride and fear
Rooms I've filled with faithless tears
And corners where I've stood in compromise

Oh but you'd see the work his grace has done
And you'd know just how far I've come

The only thing that's good in me is Jesus
The only thing that's good in me is Jesus
I'll live long enough to know no matter what this life may show
The only thing that's good in me is Jesus

And in a thousand years
When the dust of this world clears
And I look back on my life and see in perfect light

Yeah, yeah, the only thing that's good in me is Jesus
The only thing that's good in me is Jesus
I know me well enough to know yeah

The only thing that's good in me is yeah
The only thing that's good in me is yeah
I know me well enough to know no matter what this life may show
The only thing that's good in me is, yeah, is Jesus
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

This song gave me goose bumps.. b/c it's me. The only thing good in me is Jesus. And though I've shamed Him many times, He still finds a way to use a screw up like me.

"Thank you for your obedience."

She couldn't have known the magnitude of what she was saying. But that hit me like a ton of bricks. I've spent so long doing just the opposite. NOT obeying. Not listening, not doing what I am supposed to.

So I've decided to stop doing that, and start trying to listen to God (like when your good southern momma said "You had better listen to me!!!" That meant you'd better do what she said!!). My health is not where it should be.. all b/c I didn't listen.. Started to last year.. Makes me sick to think that I've wasted yet another year--not listening.. Where would I be now? Would I be pregnant?

My walk with God hasn't gone very far.. And that's my fault as well.. B/c I haven't been listening in other areas, why would God try to show me anything substantial? I haven't been faithful with the little. Oh sure, I'll give Him some little stuff, but even with that I think He needs my help.

So, my pastor reminded me that I needed to get back to what I started last year--like what Paul told a church--just do what the heck you said you would do last year, that's what he needed them to do. My pastor has reminded me that God's blessing flows from obeying Him.. And well, if that's true, must mean that cursing comes from not obeying him.

So I'm starting to obey. It's not very easy. I'm just two weeks into this new year, and this strong-willed child already has skint (southern speak) knees from falling down on my promises to myself. But I've had successes, too.

Like when she said, "Thank you for your obedience."